We had the ultrasound yesterday :D Brandon and kids were able to come and see. The baby was kicking away, moving its arms and mouth open. It was so cute! The kids loved it. I think it makes it more real to them. I had an AWESOME technician, who spent a lot of time with me...and printed all these pics for me...
I will see my OB next week to talk about the scan. But, I think all looked good?!
My growth slowed a bit, so I am sure my dates will be pretty close.
here is me today...just about 17 weeks. ultrasound today. we will see how big this monkey is!
15 lbs gained. omg, thats awful lol.
I know most is belly, but I see it in my face too :(
I cannot wait to see this little one today. Brandon is coming with the kids. I want to let them see the baby too! Hope all is well :D
somehow I gained 6 pds in the last 2 weeks?! holy sh*t
I was appalled lol.
my ob said I am retaining fluid...sigh, something to again watch.
I dont get how it can be possible. yes my belly is big, but not much else has expanded...that much ;)
yes my butt has a bit lol, but that is a lot.
wow. i really need to start eating lettuce.
he said I am 17 weeks...I am a few days off with my dates.
BUT the ultrasound tomorrow will confirm things for sure.
I hope my uterus us giant with lots of fluid ;) that would explain a lot and make me feel better.
so in 4 months I have gained 15 pds. NO JOKE
I am ok with the boobs ;) as I am back in my "big bras" lol...but I hate the rest.
Today the kids and I went on a nice bike ride...30 mins or so. some hills. enough to make me sweat.
I think the WII fit will be making a comeback...and maybe I should get the sports resort one...to make me want to do more lol.
In sept. when the kids are both in school I will hit the pool.
this is my plan.
I really could not help the weight gain, I mean I was sick...and needed the carbs to settle my tummy lol
but now thats done
I crave chocolate....so I need to exercise lol.
Otherwise babe is well. I feel him or her move a lot. the kids and hubby got to feel a squirm. they love that. it will just become more and more from now on.
I love that feeling.
We were looking for the heartbeat at my OB appt today using the doppler. the baby was kicking while he was trying to poke it lol...so it was hard to catch....my Ob was about to call the baby something nasty for all the wigglying LOL....it was cute.
HR is nice and strong.
BP is doing ok now on the medications, but we watch as I get farther along.
I cant wait to see my baby tomorrow :D
And I better not get the surprise ruined on the sex lol...the tech better not let it slip!!!! I just want to see a healthy baby.
Most of you know of the stress that my family has been going through.
On top of this high risk pregnancy, things have been rough!
In short:
-my dad has been really sick. We are still waiting for him to see a specialist, to find out what will happen long term, but for now he is at home. He is doing well. We are all still on edge, hoping for the best. The one huge positive is the biopsy on the pancreas came back as NOT cancer!! Now we wait to deal with the rest...one day at a time...and a lot of praying :)
-I am DONE work. Not by choice, but by health reasons. The stress of my dad being sick and my high BP made it impossible for me to do my job effectively. I could not imagine working with palliative patients while my dad is ill. And the heavy workload of nursing was not working.
So I am on 15 weeks of sick leave (starting Aug 17, as I had banked time to take first :) ) and will go straight into mat leave. my mat leave will run out a month or so before the baby is a year....SOOOOOO
-I decided to resign from my part time line. When I go back to work, it will be in my own time, and I will work when I want....and it will be VERY casually.
I want to be home with my babies again. They come first. I am domestic and belong here....
I LOVE nursing, but I want it to be for me, when I want to do it. AND when the kids dont need me anymore ;) I will have something to go back to!
I am over 15 weeks now, but my uterus says I am 19 or so. lol. Yes, I am big. I am going for an US on august 5 to see why I am SOOOO big.
I have my new OB<> and I will be seeing the clinic too often to make sure baby is ok due to this high bp. So I think I will be busy enough.
AND of course I need to relax :)
The heat here is unbearable lol...it is so humid, 30 degrees feels like 40 lol. Thank goodness for AC, but I still cook...I am a furnace. I am happy I am earlier pregnant for sure lol.
We had to let our nanny go. She will be done the end of august. I am trying to help her find cleaning jobs, and she is looking for another nanny job. I will miss her, she is really a super nanny!
Arianna will be 6 in a couple weeks. I am trying to get ahold of a few school friends to have a little party for her. She is working on her grade one workbook, she is way more focused on school then James...and she loves it. Smart little girl.
Well there is a quick update from me....I need to get somer recent pics. I will try this week.
Because of the issues I am having, I have now become a complicated case.
I have high bp, have started medication which I think is doing me more harm then good!
I am dizzy, throwing up more and shaky.
So my dr. made the decision to send me to an expert.
I can hardly function at times...how can I be a good nurse :s
So next wednesday I will go meet him.
His name is Dr. Price.
I had a male OB for my first 2, and to be honest I was happy to have another.
When I was told the name, I went and googled him.
And I was happy with that I read. He is the Chief of the obstetrics at the hospital I will deliver at. He must be good and experienced :)
he deals with the high risks ones.....thats me.
I hope he is nice and I hope he can make the rest of this pregnancy tolerable for me....
and figure out what is wrong with my body! My heart is still having palpatations....my dr thought the BP med would help but so far no.
Today has been a good day. No getting sick.
I am splitting my BP med in half and taking it twice a day...maybe that is the trick.
So we will see how next week goes....and how the next couple days go.
I am so drugged up now it seems unsafe at times...I am in a cloud! I may need to take a break for work....:s I hope not, but we will see.
I had my first official weigh in and fun stuff done today.
I wont even go there regarding my weight...it is sickening how big my belly is.
So, my uterus is measuring at 16 weeks when I am 12. Yup 4 weeks bigger then it should be! Umm that explains the size of this belly!!
It took the Dr 20 mins to find a heartbeat...I was freaking...
it was because the baby was much higher then suspected...once again large uterus equals room to hide.
the heartbeat is nice and strong :D
bad news?
My pregnancy induced hypertension (PIH) or high blood pressure has returned. After 3 readings the lowest it was , was 137./102
SO off to be referred to an OBGYN.
AND I need to be on medication to try and lower my blood pressure. I go back in 2 weeks to see how it is.
SO another complicated pregnancy, with a csection and if my BP remains high and earlier baby.
so we will take it week by week and see.
I need to relax and nursing may not be letting me....we will have to see.
So I am 12 weeks tomorrow.
I am praying I feel better, as I need exercise. I think I gained 3 pds alone from all the eating out we did this last week!! No joke, I can burn some fat off thats for sure!!!!!!
I am just about at the 3 month mark. Thank goodness. I am hoping for some relief!
I look at this picture and am shocked at how big that belly is getting already.
It still depresses me, but at some point I just have to let go lol.
Well, of that thought, but not of me!
Brandon bought my that lovely dress yesterday as well as a maternity bathing suit. I found it at swimco as I hated the ones from the maternity store. It cost twice as much but did not make me feel like a whale! lol.
So this summer the kids and I will be spending more time at the pool. I really need to start exercising now before its too late. Here is hoping the vomitting stops!
I need to do some toning and lose a coupe fat pounds I gained over this last couple weeks. We had my mother in law and niece here, we were out a lot, which involved too much eating out!!!
We had a wonderful visit though!
Back to work for me tomorrow.
I am headed for my first prenatal visit. lets start the weighing, poking, prodding and hopefully hearing the baby.
we are still searching for baby names. I heard one boy name I liked last night from my mother in law. A family name...so we will see :)
well off to get cleaned up for the drs!
So I worked so hard to lose 30 pds. I thought I looked great, and I felt great.
And now, 10 weeks into this pregnancy I have gained over 5 pds in my belly and boobs.
My uterus tends to grow big, it always did. With the other kids I measured 4 weeks at least ahead.
So why I am surprised.
But, I am having a hard time dealing with the fat look.
It does not look like I am pregnant, it looks like I am fat.
None of my clothes fit, my scrubs are tight (good thing I kept the ones from pre-weight loss)
I bought a few mat. dresses and thats all I have. Of course the weather cooled off, not good for summer dresses.
I do not have extra money to spend at this time on clothes.
I am trying to borrow some off my best friend.
All my mat clothes are large and xl. I am a med. now. I am not depressing myself further by wearing those!!!!
Ugh.
I know I am growing a baby, but I still feel like I am getting too big too fast.
I am still sick. I am ok during the day, when I work, but evening kills me.
I have no energy still and can sleep all the time.
so tell me, how can i get myself to exercise when I want to puke or sleep lol.
I keep telling myself in 2 weeks when I hit trimester 2, things may ease off.
then I can start exercising to lose some of the pudge lol.
I pray this happens.
I do not want to gain as much as I did with arianna.
I eat small meals, often. as if I let my stomach get empty I will start throwing up my own saliva.
It is a lose lose situation for me. SIGH
this is a real pity post for me.
I am REALLY having a hard time gaining this weight :(
I do not know how to deal. It just makes me cry.
Ok enough of that.
I am so proud of my little Arianna.
She passed her swimming class again. She is in the last level for preschool.
She can swim laps, front stroke and back stroke. She can dive. It is amazing to how much her confidence shot up. she can be in deep water now, and swim free!!! No need to worry. It is wonderful.
We are preparing for the visit of my mother in law and niece Lara.
They will be with us for over a week.
The kids are so excited.
We have many fun things planned, including playland, waterslides, beach, canada day parade and fair, and more!
I have 6 days off, I just work the friday. So it will be a nice break for all of us.
I am counting down until I no longer have to follow a schedule. I am tired! I think the LATEST I will go off on Mat leave will be Dec 1. But the physical demand of my job may make that earlier.
I was asked to start working in Day surgery. But, I am not sure I want to start a new unit at this time. I have some shifts booked for Sept. so I need to decide. It is easier there, but considering I may not work often after mat. leave and I do not have many months left at work now, is there a point?! I just dont know.....
Well, its ariannas year end party at school today. We are bringing veggies and dip.
she has 3 days left until grade one! wow....
and my baby james will be in kindergarten! :(
Good thing I have a baby coming to be home with me lol.
I am the sickest pregnant person out there, and yet I am choosing to keep on having babies lol.
I guess in the end it must be worth it ;)
But, boy do I suffer.
I am on the maximum dose of the pregnancy drug for vomitting. thats 8 pills a day. The cost of these things is insane. Thank goodness we get 100% coverage.
I still think I am doing pretty well compared to the last 2. With them, I threw up day and night....and was taking only 4 pills a day (no one told me I could take more !!)
This time, I almost always lose my dinner lol. I get sickest in the afternoon and evening. Every day. No fail.
I have only had morning sickness a few times.
I am really trying to do what I can to manage, as this time I am working.
I have some better days. and then some really bad ones.
Like last night. I could not keep anything down, and even my saliva was making me puke LOL.
Yes, it was bad.
I passed out just after 8pm thank goodness.
Today is ok so far again. I managed breakfast. But I know, afternoon hits and I feel the nausea. Sigh.
3 more weeks until the first trimester ends. I pray I get some relief!
I really want to keep working. its good for me.
I have gained a few pounds already! EEEK.
I am paranoid about getting fat again after losing all the weight before.
I know its in my belly and boobs right now hehe.
As soon as I get some energy back I need to start walking. Then it will be prenatal classes I think. no need to gain too much with this one. I am not sitting at home!
So yes, that is what is going on here. the kids are excited. James told me my belly was growing and soon I am going to be fat...LOL nice kid.
I have NO idea what I think this one is....And I love the fact I am not going to find out. it is making this experience fun.
I think we will be keeping it all a secret...names included :D
My first instinct says girl. As I think I was more evening sick with Arianna. But who knows. I think is my ass and thighs grow it is a girl LOL.
Brandon wants another boy.
I have no preference. Boy would be nice for James....and then Arianna can move into her own room eventually.
Rose will be done with us when the baby is born.
And things are not 100% but, I do not think I will be going back to my line at work.
Things for me have not been the way I want them.
My kids and family have not always been number one. And that bugs me.
For example. I had to miss Ariannas sports day cause of work. I hate that.
I want it to be that I work when I want...and my kids always come first.
So, I think we will be making some changes.
I thnk home is where I will be number one, and work will come second....when its convenient.
The reason I did my nursing was so one day when kids were old, I had something to go back to. It turned into more work then I had anticipated, for many reasons, but we are going to fix it.
No regrets for the last year and a half as I gained many skills and confidence as a nurse. Now I can feel comfortable working occasionaly.
Besides, I do not want someone else seeing this new baby walk for the first time...I was there for the first 2, and I will be for this one.....
Phew. good enough update?
I have not announced it publicly (meaning facebook and work lol) but I figure my faithful blog readers could be let in on my secret....and then I have a reason to start blogging again.
I can complain to you how crappy I feel and whats going on :D
Meet baby bean he or she is 6-7 weeks old and has a good strong heartbeat.
He or she will be arriving most likely in January...or december if he or she is like james and comes weeks early!
baby bean will be a surprise....our first one!
We found out the sex of the last two. Now having one of each, I am wanting the surprise. I am excited about it.
so if you are a faithful blog reader, or just happen to stumble upon this, I prefer not to facebook it yet. I know I am early and bad things can happen.
BUT, I am so positive about baby bean.
So yay :D
