On to 2009

snow on christmas day....at my parents...and this was not the end of it lol

Lack of blogging has been due to the crappy few months around here lol.

At least for now, we are all almost healthy.

Christmas came and went...and for some reason it just didn't feel the same.

Brandon was working most of it...and we got covered in a few feet of snow, which left many stranded at home.

I can say I am really ready to begin a new year. The end of this one has been rough.

Its been over 2 months since I miscarried. And I still think about it. And I really wish it would be easy to get pregnant again.

I can admit I am jealous of the people who are pregnant now, due around the same time I was supposed to me...wondering why it worked for them and not me...sigh.

I am thinking of heading back to bootcamp in the new year as well. I am FINALLY in a normal weight and BMI. yay me lol. But in 10 more pounds I will be skinny ;) haha

I wear a medium well now, but I want to be bikini ready :)

that is if I can tan the stretch marks to be less noticeable lol.

This is the one thing that really makes me feel good. How far I came losing weight and keeping it off.

WELL mostly. I think 2 pounds crept back over christmas, but it was SO worth it and I AM OK WITH IT lol.

I start my new part time line at delta hospital on Jan 1. I will be working 8 hr shifts. yay! and almost all 7-3. I am excited about that....to be a permanent staff member.

Although, I think brandon wants me to stay at home again ;) I have been spoiling him with cooking and baking....he remembers the old days haha.

well that is all I have to say for now.

On to 2009 and pray for a better year :)

Happy Holidays?!

Not if James keeps getting sick.
This time it was a cold gone wrong, giving him croup, and constricting his airways.
Yup, we were at the hospital AGAIN. This time for nebulizers (face mask that gives medications that look like smoke) James was not a fan.
Of course any tubes he sees he is going to scream....nightmares about the NG tube still I assume.
After a good dose of steroids, he seems ok. Just the cold now.
But, I tell ya we may as well rent a room at the hospital.
sigh.

what else can I tell ya?!
oh yes, I got my belly button re-pierced...and my nose.
crazy?! maybe, but I like.
no tattoos for me, just these :)
And they look good ;) even hubby agress.

work is work...still love it. but the night shifts kill me.
maybe Jan. I will have a nice part time 8 hr line. I should know tomorrow!!! yay!

and the biggest news? brandon bought me a new car for christmas.
it was supposed to be a suprise, but the original deal he made feel through, so he had no choice but to tell me, as the van needed to go back.
So we got to go together and pick one. we opted out of a domestic and went import.
I am getting a mazda 5 gt in stormy blue. its so nice.
it seats 6, has a nice sun roof and is good on gas.
it is way smaller then the van, but still has enough room.
I am excited. It is sitting on a boat now, headed to the port I believe. Should be here in a day or two I guess.

The kids are doing well. Arianna had a couple days of bad behavior at school but seems to be corrected. thank goodness! And you know James' story lately lol.
they are obsessed with christmas music.
I bought them the little peoples christmas cd, and they listen to it ALL day.
it has all the common christmas songs. so they are learning.
It has been great, they have been playing so nice and spending a lot of time in their room ;)
what am I going to do when christmas is over?! lol

Hair done!

A little shorter then I wanted...sigh, that always happens...but the highlights are nice...slowly getting back to normal...no more black hehe

Almost 28!

Here I am just a couple days away from the big 28....and I feel great :)

Since May I have lost almost 30 pounds...yes thats right.

I was around 177 when I started bootcamp...and was a size 12...

I am now 147 pds and am a size 9; almost 8...

I feel wonderful about myself again :)

I still want to lose a bit more, but am in no rush. I am going to enjoy my holiday season after the stress of the last couple months.

between the miscarriage and James in hospital for 10 days, I need time to relax.

I treated myself to a brand new pair of lululemon pants (size 6 even !) they are expensive, but well deserved hehe.

Sorry for the lack of updating...but as you know James being in hospital took my time.

I am not going to post about it on here...as I have enough notes about it on facebook.

We are looking forward to a nice holiday season. Almost time to put the tree up (rule is after my bday but it will be Dec 1 i think )

I am most likely going to be getting a part time line at the hospital. It will give me between 9-11 shifts a month, ALL 8 hours, and 90% 7-3 shifts. CANT BEAT THAT. Nursing now a days is almost all 12 hrs. Days nights...

so if I get this...minimal nights.

It will be PERFECT. AND it will give me benefits which will include maternity top-ups :) for when the time happens. I will get closer to my regular wage while on mat leave! cant beat that!!!

Me and My Scrubs

James

He has been having issues with his tummy for about 6 weeks or so. He will randomly throw up. He had issues with going to the bathroom too. I took him to the Dr. and they said its normal for some kids to puke...so I left it.
When we got back from vacation it had gotten worse. He then got a cold and fever. Once he was better from that, he continued to get sick and say he had an ouchy tummy. We have had 3 pukes in the van..not fun.
So I take him to the dr. and he sends us to childrens hospital. What a waste of time, as they are referring us to a pediatrician. I guess it will take some time to watch him and figure out what is wrong. It can be many things that will need to be ruled out if it continues. Sigh. A long process.
Poor guy. Otherwise he is super healthy the Dr says. :)

I didn't update after vacation. there would be too much to say! lol
You can see the pics on facebook :)
And I have decided I am a forever cruiser now, and we will be planning another for the summer hopefully. The kids LOVED it...and so did we. It just needs to be 2 weeks from now on :) We are looking at a hawaii one :)

I am still working a lot. I am loving delta, and am hoping to get a part time 8hr line soon. That will give me 2 shifts a week. It is hard to find 8hr ones in nursing too so I want to grab it while I can...plus the bonus of maternity benefit top ups.

Its been one month since the miscarriage. I am hoping things go back to normal soon for my body.
My best friend just had a baby 5 days ago..I am so jealous lol. He is a little handful but I still want one :)

Happy 4th Birthday to my Bubby Bear

Update on Me.

Things happened Oct 8th at 300pm. It was before my ultrasound.
To me I almost felt instant relief...I felt like I was ready to move on and over the initial emotion of it. After 24 hrs straight of crying, I was able to accept that it just wasnt meant to be.
I am still very sad of course, but am happy to know that I can truly heal now.....

The US showed the baby was not in the tubes. That is why I went for it.
My dr. knows I started to miscarry so she relaxed (a bit) about me going away.
She doesnt think its a good idea.
I told her if by monday things are not looking up I will go to the ER. The last thing I need is a cancelled trip!!!

I was early enough on that things should bounce back to normal soon. And once again we will let nature take its course. I was not far enough along to cause any issues that would prevent me from TTC for a few months...so thats a good thing.

So whatever God has planned for me, I am ok with that. I really want another baby, so I hope we can have a good, strong healthy pregnancy some time in the near future when its meant to be....

The worst part was the kids new I was pregnant. I have learned that next time I am not telling them until I am past the scary part.
James cried when I told him and Arianna asked questions.
I told them the baby was not healthy and able to grow. And said we would have another one soon. Just left it at that.
Arianna told me maybe if I ate healthy the baby would grow back...lol...

And that is all I have heard since....

So now we move on. I am working my last night shift until the 27th.
I am looking forward to sunday as its James birthday and thanksgiving dinner. mmmm
Monday I am cooking a turkey dinner for brandon as he is missing sundays.
Then its time for fun in the sun. I saw a temp of 27 in anaheim on tuesday. sweeeeet!!!

Thanks for all the kind works and support. It is amazing how people come out to support you in true time of need. All the words really helped me through. Thanks sooooo much

XOXO

Very Sad

I had yet to announce, but we were expecting our third baby.
I found out today, I will be miscarrying. My HCG level did not go up, it dropped by 8. It is a waiting game now.
I am going for an US to check things out. Not sure why is necessary.... And a repeat blood test to confirm.
I am devestated to say the least.
It is so hard sitting here, waiting for such a terrible thing to happen.
At this point I need it to, so I can move on and heal.
We leave for vacation soon. And my dr. did not want me to go in case things go sour. So pray things pass quickly.
This is why I did not want to make it public until I was further along...
but I reach out in support now during this very sad time.
I cried most the day, and had to come to work for a night shift. I am here now, and its been tears on and off all night. Only 2 people at work knew, so I have not shared further.
I really wanted this baby. The timing was just right.
If any miracle happens tomorrow at the US I will share. otherwise keep us in your thoughts and prayers.
Love Andrea

Killer Cold

I have been suffering for a week with a killer sinus cold. I have not been able to sleep at night...the head pounds too much. THANK goodness I had the week off work.
I was supposed to get my wisdom teeth out, but it was more complicated then we thought, and for other reasons it has been put off.

I start my shifts on my own at delta on sunday. I am a little nervous. I hope I do ok lol.
I am more excited to go on vacation lol.
the kids still do not know and we are not going to tell them. I cannot wait to see their faces. :)
I am excited that disneyland will be all decorated for halloween!
We got a suite on the cruise ship. so there will be enough room..and a balcony to sit on!! Thats where brandon is going to sleep ;) The countdown is on. 10 days!! eeeeeeeeek

Other things are going on here...but I am going to wait a bit to talk about them :) Oh no...secrets lol