A Positive

My dad has cancer...yes.
In 4 places.
The good news? It did not start in the pancreas...so it's not as aggressive as having pancreatic cancer (lifespan is 3-6 months)
the cancer he has is less aggressive and slower to grow.
My dads GP says he thinks its more like YEARS for my dad NOT months :D
they think it started in the kidney, from his previous cancer 8 years ago.
I am SO thankful today.
I am thankful for hope today. that God really has helped us out in giving my dad more time.
Granted, I know things can change instantly with cancer. But, I am going on the positive knowing how well my dad is doing.
he will start chemo, 2-4 weeks to even see the cancer clinic, and then they will decide when.
His cancer is not really active at this time, so they may choose to not do anything until he is actually sick.
So even in this terrible summer, I am accepting my dad has cancer and I may only have him for a few years....
but thats years...and that is time to enjoy eachother and continuing to make memories.
Now, lets hope the cancer clinic says the same about dads prognosis....or I will put my foot in my mouth about posting this! lol
But, I am confident right now. And it feels good, so I want to embrace it.

On baby news....we are just about 20 weeks. Half way cooked. And at this time I am in NO hurry to have this pregnancy be over. I enjoy the moving and since I am not sick, it is nice.
I know my sister in law is ready to be done, and I will probably feel the same at 38 weeks....but for now, I am content.
Yes, I am still getting fat lol....but thats ok. I lost the weight before, I WILL do it again.
And come sept. I will be walking back and forth to school 3 times a day. Now thats exercises I am looking forward to.
I bought a cute forest themed crib set....animals I mean,
It has a baby bear, bunny, birds, turtle, owl, catepillar on it I think.
It is a great neutral color combo.
Last night I drew up my mural on paper (and added a deer and squirrel) and I am going to get some particle board to start working on it.
I am excited.
The kids room is getting ready to be painted, so they can move back,
then we set up the nursery in plenty of time!
This is a great way to keep my mind at ease and keep busy...and relax :D

A sad Day

This past month has been rough for my family.
My dad, who is 62, has been dealing with bouts of pancreatitis.
During one hospital stay it was discovered he had lesions on his lung, kidney, pancreas and liver (but he was not told about the liver)
They did a biopsy of the pancreas and told us it was negative for cancer....
he was discharged home saying he had a rare disease and would see a specialist.
then he had another biopsy...not sure why at the time.
this cause another case of pancreatitis that landed him in hospital again...this time we went to a better one!
We were told he had cancer.....and that the previous hospital did not have negative results, they were inconclusive.
so he had another procedure to see the type of cancer it was.
well, today we had the bad news it is inoperable.
He will have chemo to give him time.
it just depends how his body reacts and how he fights.
We are devestated.
I am so sad that I will lost my dad.
we do not know the time we have left...it all depends.
I pray he hangs on, is strong and can fight.
It will be a long road ahead with a very sad ending.
Thank you for all your support and prayers.
keep them coming.
We love you Dad.....

Arianna is 6

We had a party with 4 kids from Arianna's class. It was a hawaiian party. All the girls got the skirt, lei's and coconuts lol. They played games, pinata, and ate lots. It was fun...but loud! lol
I cannot believe she is 6 and ready to go full days in school. She is a smart girl, and ready.
I am doing well. Nothing new really, same old.
My ultrasound looked good. I am due Jan 15, so dates were on. I just grew fast. I think things have slowed down a bit.
I will go for a third trimester ultrasound again. To see more details.
But all my screenings came back negative, so baby is great.
My placenta is posterior, thank goodness. Makes the c-section less complicated. I am sad that I will never experience a regular birth, but my health and baby are more important. It is too risky otherwise. I knew it, it is just sad to me. Oh well. I have had 2, I know what I am in for...a few day hospital stay and longer recovery. Good thing I should have help!
My OB is anticipating my BP will play an issue at the end...I assume this means a bit early on delivery. How early is the question.....
We have had cooler weather...it has been a nice break!
We have moved the kids into the baby room, so we can renovated theirs. Brandon put the new sky lights in today...then we can work on the walls!!! Need to get them all done before we can do the nursery.
Wow almost half way done this pregnancy. It has gone fast.
I am thankful it has been my best one yet!!! I dont get sick anymore...well except for yesterday in the car....lol
I feel better...but the weight keeps packing on...lots of fluid too due to this high BP.
I need to diet LOL.
At least some school there will be LOTS of walking to and from school 3 times a day. it will help me a lot!
Our nanny is done with us as of today. we are letting her live here until december or until she finds another live in job. she will clean once a week for us to make up the extra cost.
It is bittersweet. she has been wonderful. but to be honest I am ready to take back my home :D Go back to my roots as domestic goddess lol....

Baby Three

We had the ultrasound yesterday :D Brandon and kids were able to come and see. The baby was kicking away, moving its arms and mouth open. It was so cute! The kids loved it. I think it makes it more real to them. I had an AWESOME technician, who spent a lot of time with me...and printed all these pics for me...
I will see my OB next week to talk about the scan. But, I think all looked good?!
My growth slowed a bit, so I am sure my dates will be pretty close.

17 weeks

here is me today...just about 17 weeks. ultrasound today. we will see how big this monkey is!
15 lbs gained. omg, thats awful lol.
I know most is belly, but I see it in my face too :(
I cannot wait to see this little one today. Brandon is coming with the kids. I want to let them see the baby too! Hope all is well :D

Depressing

somehow I gained 6 pds in the last 2 weeks?! holy sh*t
I was appalled lol.
my ob said I am retaining fluid...sigh, something to again watch.
I dont get how it can be possible. yes my belly is big, but not much else has expanded...that much ;)
yes my butt has a bit lol, but that is a lot.
wow. i really need to start eating lettuce.
he said I am 17 weeks...I am a few days off with my dates.
BUT the ultrasound tomorrow will confirm things for sure.
I hope my uterus us giant with lots of fluid ;) that would explain a lot and make me feel better.
so in 4 months I have gained 15 pds. NO JOKE
I am ok with the boobs ;) as I am back in my "big bras" lol...but I hate the rest.
Today the kids and I went on a nice bike ride...30 mins or so. some hills. enough to make me sweat.
I think the WII fit will be making a comeback...and maybe I should get the sports resort one...to make me want to do more lol.
In sept. when the kids are both in school I will hit the pool.
this is my plan.
I really could not help the weight gain, I mean I was sick...and needed the carbs to settle my tummy lol
but now thats done
I crave chocolate....so I need to exercise lol.

Otherwise babe is well. I feel him or her move a lot. the kids and hubby got to feel a squirm. they love that. it will just become more and more from now on.
I love that feeling.
We were looking for the heartbeat at my OB appt today using the doppler. the baby was kicking while he was trying to poke it lol...so it was hard to catch....my Ob was about to call the baby something nasty for all the wigglying LOL....it was cute.
HR is nice and strong.
BP is doing ok now on the medications, but we watch as I get farther along.
I cant wait to see my baby tomorrow :D
And I better not get the surprise ruined on the sex lol...the tech better not let it slip!!!! I just want to see a healthy baby.