Finally an update

Most of you know of the stress that my family has been going through.
On top of this high risk pregnancy, things have been rough!
In short:

-my dad has been really sick. We are still waiting for him to see a specialist, to find out what will happen long term, but for now he is at home. He is doing well. We are all still on edge, hoping for the best. The one huge positive is the biopsy on the pancreas came back as NOT cancer!! Now we wait to deal with the rest...one day at a time...and a lot of praying :)

-I am DONE work. Not by choice, but by health reasons. The stress of my dad being sick and my high BP made it impossible for me to do my job effectively. I could not imagine working with palliative patients while my dad is ill. And the heavy workload of nursing was not working.
So I am on 15 weeks of sick leave (starting Aug 17, as I had banked time to take first :) ) and will go straight into mat leave. my mat leave will run out a month or so before the baby is a year....SOOOOOO
-I decided to resign from my part time line. When I go back to work, it will be in my own time, and I will work when I want....and it will be VERY casually.
I want to be home with my babies again. They come first. I am domestic and belong here....
I LOVE nursing, but I want it to be for me, when I want to do it. AND when the kids dont need me anymore ;) I will have something to go back to!

I am over 15 weeks now, but my uterus says I am 19 or so. lol. Yes, I am big. I am going for an US on august 5 to see why I am SOOOO big.
I have my new OB<> and I will be seeing the clinic too often to make sure baby is ok due to this high bp. So I think I will be busy enough.
AND of course I need to relax :)

The heat here is unbearable lol...it is so humid, 30 degrees feels like 40 lol. Thank goodness for AC, but I still cook...I am a furnace. I am happy I am earlier pregnant for sure lol.

We had to let our nanny go. She will be done the end of august. I am trying to help her find cleaning jobs, and she is looking for another nanny job. I will miss her, she is really a super nanny!

Arianna will be 6 in a couple weeks. I am trying to get ahold of a few school friends to have a little party for her. She is working on her grade one workbook, she is way more focused on school then James...and she loves it. Smart little girl.

Well there is a quick update from me....I need to get somer recent pics. I will try this week.

My new OB

Because of the issues I am having, I have now become a complicated case.
I have high bp, have started medication which I think is doing me more harm then good!
I am dizzy, throwing up more and shaky.
So my dr. made the decision to send me to an expert.
I can hardly function at times...how can I be a good nurse :s
So next wednesday I will go meet him.
His name is Dr. Price.
I had a male OB for my first 2, and to be honest I was happy to have another.
When I was told the name, I went and googled him.
And I was happy with that I read. He is the Chief of the obstetrics at the hospital I will deliver at. He must be good and experienced :)
he deals with the high risks ones.....thats me.
I hope he is nice and I hope he can make the rest of this pregnancy tolerable for me....
and figure out what is wrong with my body! My heart is still having palpatations....my dr thought the BP med would help but so far no.
Today has been a good day. No getting sick.
I am splitting my BP med in half and taking it twice a day...maybe that is the trick.
So we will see how next week goes....and how the next couple days go.
I am so drugged up now it seems unsafe at times...I am in a cloud! I may need to take a break for work....:s I hope not, but we will see.

First Prenatal

I had my first official weigh in and fun stuff done today.
I wont even go there regarding my weight...it is sickening how big my belly is.
So, my uterus is measuring at 16 weeks when I am 12. Yup 4 weeks bigger then it should be! Umm that explains the size of this belly!!
It took the Dr 20 mins to find a heartbeat...I was freaking...
it was because the baby was much higher then suspected...once again large uterus equals room to hide.
the heartbeat is nice and strong :D
bad news?
My pregnancy induced hypertension (PIH) or high blood pressure has returned. After 3 readings the lowest it was , was 137./102
SO off to be referred to an OBGYN.
AND I need to be on medication to try and lower my blood pressure. I go back in 2 weeks to see how it is.
SO another complicated pregnancy, with a csection and if my BP remains high and earlier baby.
so we will take it week by week and see.
I need to relax and nursing may not be letting me....we will have to see.
So I am 12 weeks tomorrow.
I am praying I feel better, as I need exercise. I think I gained 3 pds alone from all the eating out we did this last week!! No joke, I can burn some fat off thats for sure!!!!!!

3 months

I am just about at the 3 month mark. Thank goodness. I am hoping for some relief!
I look at this picture and am shocked at how big that belly is getting already.
It still depresses me, but at some point I just have to let go lol.
Well, of that thought, but not of me!
Brandon bought my that lovely dress yesterday as well as a maternity bathing suit. I found it at swimco as I hated the ones from the maternity store. It cost twice as much but did not make me feel like a whale! lol.
So this summer the kids and I will be spending more time at the pool. I really need to start exercising now before its too late. Here is hoping the vomitting stops!
I need to do some toning and lose a coupe fat pounds I gained over this last couple weeks. We had my mother in law and niece here, we were out a lot, which involved too much eating out!!!
We had a wonderful visit though!
Back to work for me tomorrow.
I am headed for my first prenatal visit. lets start the weighing, poking, prodding and hopefully hearing the baby.
we are still searching for baby names. I heard one boy name I liked last night from my mother in law. A family name...so we will see :)
well off to get cleaned up for the drs!